Sunday, January 24, 2021

I Rise.

As I contemplate my present life and where my life will lead next, I repeatedly return to the idea of reclamation. Body reclamation. For me, reclaiming my body coincides with reclaiming my life. Reclaiming my body – in a myriad of ways – continues to be the single most important commitment I make each day as I progress toward full recovery from my eating disorder. It is this reclamation of body and life that I think of each time I see the One Billion Rising logo cross my computer screen. It is this reclamation of my body and life for which I rejoice when I watch this three-minute One Billion Rising video by Eve Ensler and Tony Stroebel [TRIGGER WARNING]:

As I am sure many of you know, February 14th is the day of culmination for the V-Day One Billion Rising project. Its website states, One Billion Rising is: A global strike / An invitation to dance / A call to men and women to refuse to participate in the status quo until rape and rape culture ends / An act of solidarity, demonstrating to women the commonality of their struggles and their power in numbers / A refusal to accept violence against women and girls as a given / A new time and a new way of being.

I hope that on February 14th, the land will tremble with the dancing of women and men claiming the right of girls and women to be in the world without the threat of violence.

I, however, will not be dancing. But in my stillness I will rise in solidarity with those who dance. I will rise by celebrating my body’s newfound ability to be still and silent without reliving the violence once perpetrated against it.

I will rise by acknowledging my arrival at a new place along my journey of body reclamation: A place from where I rise by holding in awe my body’s ability to give me so much important information about what I need to be well. A place from where I rise by honoring that I am entering a time of the year when solitude feels more nurturing than communion. A place from where I rise by listening intentionally to my body, to the sounds I have not yet heard and the sensations I have not yet felt. A place from where I rise by honoring myself and others. A place from where I rise by waking before the sun and seeing her beauty shine as my own.

I will rise by lighting a candle and sending a silent prayer that I may honor that part of myself, and each person I meet each day, which holds the beautiful potential of the flame in front of me – a delicacy by which a breath of air can extinguish it or cause it to rage. I will rise by honoring the feelings that arise from deep within me as I watch that flame flicker with a rhythm embodying the tremble of the earth caused by one billion dancers, dancing for one billion bodies reclaimed, dancing for one billion lives reclaimed. Dancing in solidarity… or sitting in silence.

How will you rise?

To learn more about One Billion Rising and to locate a One Billion Rising event near you, visit


2 Responses to “I Rise.”
  1. Deb says:

    Joslyn, this is beautiful. We will be rising here as well. Actually we are going to Steubenville OH in support of the young woman raped by the football players and then had pictures shared on the internet. the earth will move beneath our feet!

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